In Loving Memory of Mdm Loh Leng Khim

[6a.m. I can't get to sleep. She popped into my mind. Moment by moment, memories started to gush thru' my mind. I started to tear. Before I know it, I was crying out bitterly. I miss her so much, so much.]

She is my beloved Grandmother.

She was a strong woman of her time. She lived thru' war. She lived thru' the Independence of our Nation. She got married. Had 6 kids. Became a young widow; the oldest was 12, the youngest was 6 mths old. She lived thru' it.

But life wasn't easy for this young widow. For all the businesses her late husband left behind, others were preying on them. Preying on this helpless widow. She mayb helpless, yet she is strong-willed. She worked hard to bring up her 6 kids, to instill values in them, to get them educated, to get them to stand on their own 2 feet and not be looked down upon by others as "father-less kids".

She worked hard, she 'played hard' as well. She was a heavy smoker, a heavy drinker. From tender age I can recall... She cld gobble down a bottle of Martell by herself. Easily. And still be able to walk straight. It probabbly became an addiction... No one could stop her. Coz she made it this far. She lived thru' it.

As a Grandmother, she did all she did, like what she did to her 6 kids. Tender loving care combined with countless strokes of canes. She did all she could to take care of me. I was a sickly child. She nursed me to pink health. My folks were "never" ard.She's had basically raised me till I was a young teen, until I became a rebellious kid. Looking at memories only brings back heartaches and tears. How much I wish she is still ard.

As a misfitted teenager, a misfitted granddotter, I brought her heartaches. I gave her headaches. I made her cry. The things I did, I regretted. I regretted for her pain and tears.

The last years b4 she left was probably the hardest time in her life. Not only did she leave with unfufilled dreams, but she left with worries.
"... if I had raised my kids, to fight among themselves, what is the point? I failed my duty towards them and my late husband?..."

"... I dun wanna leave... my beloved granddotter... I haf yet to see her graduate... yet to see her settle down... yet to see her blissed..."

My dear grandmother... You haf done all you could. You've been great. U fufilled your duties. I haf graduated... thou u can't be there... and I miss you terribly...

If only I spent more time? or If only I cld turn back time?

No matter how misfitted I am, or whoever thinks I'm an unfifial child... In her eyes, it doesn't matter...

She loved me all the same.

Even today you are no longer physically ard, you still live within my heart and mind.

Ah ma... I love you. And I regret not telling you alive.

Stuffed w Food...

Yo ho! Wadever happened to my diet plans... Juz came bk from dinner w the mean english bloke and the funky monkey.. Damn full! Typical Northbridge Dong-Fang-Lou meal... Its been a while since I went there.. Like my bday till now...

After dinner was a session of pool @ PotBlack and I haf to say that for a mean english bloke, David plays a gd game of pool. Sharp shooter.. but his height is an advantage thou... so nt fair for me n fnkymnky..=p

So much for dieting plans, master brought bk a pizza frm work.. and as usual being greedy.. *rubbing my bloated tummy* .. disgusting..

Work off that misfitted fat ass... get gng... fat shit!

Home Alone

Well well, its the tym of the wk again, whereby Master works 2 jobs in a row and is gone 12 hrs... Misty very SIANZ! farked up farked up... why do pple bother posting up notices that they need PT-ers but they cant even give u an answer.. Wan to employ den employ dun wan den juz say dun wan la... WTF... waste time... farkers!

I guess its juz gonna be Foxtel, Internet, my Mac and myself for these 2 days.. again...

Suit of the Day - Tong Zi

Well well, nothing much for the weekend, juz a typical Aussie-Sing one, I suppose.. hehe

Sat nite was Loton's @ Duncraig, Sun nite was MJ @ Joondalup, n tonite Loton's again @ Kelmscott. This wk is the last wk for Loton's jobs. *sighz* like tt hw can earn enuff $$ ?!?! Den the rest of the jobs all so farked... either no reply or no experience... super sian diao..

Anyway, abt my Tong Zi... super steam... zi-mo twice, 6 fan... Both rounds waiting for at least 3 cards.. damn nice la.. veri long dun haf dis kinda of pretty tiles. Love my tiles *mucks mucks* Hopefully can play MJ when go bk to SG... all my kaki-s gone... Mota gng to HK... no one ard already.

As for Loton's... beep beep beep...

Driving along the Coast

Me-Master and me go pak-tor today. Supposed to haf hse inspection today but the stoopid agent din even turn up. Called her a couple of times all directed to hp... knnccb. $^&#^!! where haf so irritating one...

sidetrack a bit. tt day master picked up a pink motorola razor, den wan to return to the Telstra shop today. But guess wad the Telstra shop pple say.. "We dun do it. There are so many shops and we wouldnt know who. U haf to bring it to the Police Station." Master jus went *twang* WTF... wanna be gd n rtn pple hp oso so difficult.

Anyway we went to the beach in the evening, drove from Scarborough till Joondalup.. Quite a nice view and many many nice houses. Eh, J-Meister, ur mum ask u to search for house rite? Buy @ Hillary's la... so many new houses building there... nice place!!

Wahlaueh!! Look @ Our FAT faces... Better lose some weight b4 rtn-ing to Sg!

All I want for Christmas is You

Gosh... This beautiful thing has been on my mind for the past few days.

CHANEL Cruise 06/07 --- The first picture on the catalogue: model with the Black Bag.

It looks so pretty... but wad a pity. Coz i dunno its name or its price. And i suppose by the tym I find out, even got money also cannot buy coz' out of stock (very common for Chanel)

Or maybe I should follow Adrina... The Coco Cabas in patent black. It's another black beauty I would like to add into my pathetic lil' collection..*sighz* The CocoCabas is actually more attainable I suppose.. coz Adrina is gng Melb tmr.. so if in stock she can help me... haha.. (but den again its outta stock in the States?!?)

Yesh, I'm dreaming already... with my lovely Chanel Black Beauty...

"Please tell Santa (or me master.. haha) I'm been a really sweet nice girl..."

The Day of Ma-ri-a Misfit

so fucking tired!!!

Cleaned the entire house today... Packed away the books, cleaned and scrubbed 2 toilets w a fucking toothbrush, vacuum the entire house, wash and mopped the kitchen...

My bones are aching la.. tho the house is not big but still.. where haf so ah sum one!

My poor hands and feet are so sore and dry and cracked... so sad.. and can't haf any mani/pedi/massage here coz so farking expensive... *sighz*

Me master is coming home soon... gtg cook dinner for him... +_+
(this post let my big sistas read sure kena... lol... whr haf so ah sum one?!?!)

Me Master the Newspaper Boy

Woohoo! Last night was't all tt boring for me, coz misty me followed SW to work - as a newspaper delivery boy @ 12am!
Took mis-fitted pictures but they are all dark n blur. But no choice coz I can only stay in the car.


SW have to prep the papers b4 throwing it onto pple's lawn. It's damn bad for hearing coz those old machines were darn loud n noisy... *clang clang*
So poor me had to wait for 1 hr b4 the delivery process start... and keep me accompany were unfrenly mozzies, generously giving me love bites.. $%^&@$ !!!
Anyway, this is how the inside of the car looks like. Newpaper rolls everywhere. I had to sit at the back in a lil' corner. I tot it was quite fun for a while, even tho' the ride was quite bumpy. Imagine urself feeling frustrated and you can thow stuff at others property. I wonder what happens if I were to deliver n I juz hit one of those Beamers.. *grinz*
Now for pple staying ard Nedlands/Claremont, haf u tried "PUSEY'S PUFFS" ???
Pusey.. pussy.. pussie... Puffs.. erm.. *gulpz* Its this old corner shop and naturally the name of the shop caught the misfit's attention... Gimme eat I muz think twice le... Me aint no having pusey in me mouth.. mayb most of its customers r "pusey" lovers... yikes!

I can tell that I am bored.

Yeah. I'm really bored. Thus the creation of this blog.
I remember the last blog I had lasted only a week when I was bored. But it's the holidays nw and I haf nothing better to do than wait for me-master to be back.

J-Meister said that if u r bored, n u blog, basically there's nothing to blog abt coz its boring. and everyday I'm dng the same farking thing. Kinda made sense but I'm juz too farking bored!!!

Afterall I'm Misfit, so... "Pls refer to the last post for daily updates. Thank you."